I guess there's no getting around it...

I guess there's no getting around it...I still love my wife.

I still love you so very much.

When I married you I created heaven...and when I lost you I created hell.

My sponser once told me about recovery, "The good news is you get your feelings back, the bad news is you get your feelings back". How true, how true.

I look back at the beauty, warmth, and love you brought into my life and it is very hard not to believe that I was truely insane for doing the things that drove you away from me.

That is for me perhaps the most painful revelation of my alcoholism/addiction...that I had one of the most beautiful things in the world, you, and I gave it away.

I hope that somehow God's plan for my life includes bringing you back to me.

If not, I'll do my best to be happy, healthy, and strong and live the best life I can possibly live.

But if somehow, someway with God's help and blessing you come back into my life I'll thank God every day and do my best to honor, love, and respect you until the day I die.

I'm glad I'm getting my feelings back, I just wish this part of my life did not hurt so much.

When I think of the the pain and sadness I made you feel the pain cuts my soul. I ask God to forgive me and bring into your life all of the happiness, peace, and love that I could ever hope to have in my own life.

I love you...and I will forever...and I wish you all of the best in life.