Changing for the better...

My life is changing for the better in so many ways!

I am becoming a healthy person -- both mentally and physically and spiritually -- in so many different aspects of my life that it makes me feel happy when I consider my prospects for the future.

When I started on this journey I knew it would be a long one -- a lifetime journey -- but it is nice to see some glimpses of happiness and progress to keep me going.

I only wish my wife was still in my life to share it. I'm finally starting to become the man she always wanted me to be -- happy, honest, content. I so long to call her and say "Hey honey, guess what...".

I think continuing to get better is probably the best way for me to make amends to her.

If I can become a good father, a spiritually strong man, and give her some peace of mind in the knowledge that if, God forbid, something should ever happen to her that I will be there for our children...maybe that will somehow say "I'm sorry for the pain I've caused you" and let her know how much I care for her and regret what has happened.

I just wish she were here to see how much I'm changing for the better...